something you should know about me…

I have a deep desire to follow Jesus and know Him more. And it has nothing to do with you. It’s about me and Him. It’s not an affront to what you believe or don’t believe. This relationship is mine and mine alone. I’m not asking you to think, feel or act a certain way, I’m only sharing this with you because I am not going to be writing on a tangle of yarn anymore. You can find me over at countitjoyful.com where I will be writing about what I should have been writing about all along but have been too afraid to…and that is my love for Jesus.

I know this isn’t going to be easy for me. I am a sinner and I am a mess. Walking the way we are expected to walk is a struggle. It is so easy to say what we believe but not actually walk it out. Saying and doing are two very different things. And I don’t make it easy for myself. I have a bad habit of mirroring other people. It is actually a great skill when you are trying to relate to people or sell them something but not when you are trying to be an example. Acting as though I am struggling too/still is a place I can frequently go to because I fear being criticized and judged if I share what I really think or feel. I didn’t start out as a Christian and I have made a lot of bad choices, and continue to screw up. Some who knew me then tend to hold it over my head. Those who haven’t changed in the same area or even have a mind to tend to say ‘well, aren’t you cool’ and ‘way to pat yourself on the back’ or they remind me of the time I screwed up. Other’s opinions can’t be my motivation or my hiding place.

If you are interested in reading about what this looks like for me in real life, then welcome.

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